Sunday, December 11, 2005:
i've never felt so strong about God before. as in, serious. i might be really getting to know Him better. i really hope this isnt a passing phase. i really want to know and seek God and know God better. maybe i've just found my calling. and its like, amazing you know.. like how God has been using me. i've only begun to realise it. and i feel like i have to read the bible now. like its a must, cos if i want to help people, i really need a guide to guide me, and that's the bible. i've never felt so strongly about something before. its like, i know something's on, and i need to do something about it. and i want to feel this passionate about God as He is to me. it is a good thing yeah? :D i want to minister to people and share the gospel through talking and sharing with people. i feel like its important to do so you know? i feel like God's using me to tell people things. and this relationship with God has really let me experience his existence. and thats why i'm starting to feel so strongly about Him. its amazing how much i've come to know over the expanse of a few days. maybe i've been slowly absorbing all these while and i havent really understood. and after camp everything just fitted. in a way i'm glad things turned out okay. God is good, all the time. towards carolling, towards camp, towards cell. i'm glad things became okay. you can really tell its God's hands in action. its like, bammm, everthing falls into place when you place the problem into his hands. its like he wants to help you. i want to do something for God in return too. i want to be used by him. and that's why i'm going to dedicate my life to him. and boy, do i hope that this isnt a passing phase of my life. i really really want to do something.
a shout of praise.
8:10 AM
